Terror

              I FEEL SO TERRIBLE TODAY 

                               I'M SIM 

                THE TERRIBLE MONSTER 

p/s: i failed to open my heart and accept people for who they are because i like to compare them to my idealized characters ,it caused me heartache,...............and because of that, i refused to hep a person today because i thought the person is not entitled, my conscience failed me today as it worked against my better judgement. 

8 things

1.  hate uncomfortable silences.

2. don't mind being a sexy bitch///slut, because a bitch doesn't care what others say and it's fun to bitching around.

3. prefer undergoing retail therapy alone.

4. secretly admire a guy from the bookstore that bumped into quite often.

5. like mature man with intelligence, and loads of $$ , will marry one.

6. Also like bad boys, as lovers.

7. Love poetry although not really understand.

8. hate zombies , but like vampires

Being someone else

I would love to walk in Carine Roitfeld's shoes.

Because consciousness is a terrible curse. 
I think, I feel, I suffer. - Craig Schwartz ( Being John Malkovich ) 


Being conscious means being aware of what is going on around you but im pretty sure that's nothing much going on around me at the time; when life turns into routine, people just become robots, wake up each morning just to continue things that have been done yesterday until the batteries run out.

So often, i'll have this strange urge that I want to be somebody elses; the socialite, the coffee shop owner, a man, an althlete ............... but me. You may say that I'm not grateful for having a comfort life or not true to myself, in fact the whole escapism thing is very - me.

Like Craig, i feel trapped in my current situation. I wish there is a magic secret door where i can fulfill my escapist dream, yes, just like in the movie although i wish it can be longer than 15 minutes, a day is enough !

Alas, life is no magic unless i suffer any of the psychology diseases or getting high on some pills.......

Humans on the earth & me, try to appreciate more and whine less, perhaps that's when the miracle happened!!!

P/S : Who would you like to be for a day?